Yesterday virtually everyone in the house was in a bad mood. My parents were taking it out on me and I was taking it out on them
Shortly before mom got home, Cookie had another seizure. Mom yelled at me when she got home and I yelled at her back. Dad came home and I was yelled at some more
And at some point during all the yelling and screaming mom told me it’s my fault that Cookie still has seizures
When they left the room I started yelling at God demanding to know why no matter how much I pray about it Cookie still isn’t healed of her ailments. He showed up and I sensed concern coming from him as he just listened without even saying anything.
I yelled at him about my other problems as well for probably about an hour before I was able to calm down. I could tell God cared about me as his presence remained in the room until I was completely finished yelling about all the various things that hurt.
~Twinkles the Kitten
When I’m not feeling depressed and angry I just feel empty on the inside.
When I’m actively praying it’s not as bad but when I leave the prayer closet the emptiness comes back.
There are no feelings aside from that emptiness at that point. It’s like I’m a shell without purpose and I know that wasn’t God’s design plan for my life.
This isn’t how Jesus wants me to be, I understand that much.
~Twinkles the Kitten
Last year I kept feeling something crawling all over me but I was unable to ever grab it regardless of how hard I tried
I wondered if it was imagination at times before it started back up again
At one point though I managed to get a hold of something and pried it out of my hair and tossed it across the room
Apparently it was a good sized bug.
Looked straight out of the game Twilight Princess
I ran out of the room creeped out and it was never seen again. Quite odd for a bug of that size.
We’re not talking a small bug.
We’re talking very large. It is downright strange no one else saw it and weird it was just gone minutes later without a trace
And I have felt things crawling on me I can’t grab either since then
According to my research it’s called an astral parasite and as much as I wanted to believe that simply couldn’t be it because I’m not dumb enough to open myself up by astral projecting, it’s really the only answer I could ever find to this issue
~Twinkles the Kitten
So I moved to Vlare, and I don't have any ideas. I uploaded two RÆ related videos and made a playlist. I would be more active on Vlare if it has an app for us. And since I ran out of ideas, what ideas do you have for me?
My most unpopular video to date was a video I used to test Vlare's video converter to make sure it was working. Coming in at a grand total of -3 likes, I'm sorry I let you all down. I've learned my lesson, and I will make sure not to test the site and fix issues in the future. Thank you for your support, and again, sorry for letting you down.
(DISCLAIMER: it's a joke)
I might delete this later, but I want to explain in brief the reason for my inactivity. I have to bite my tongue, but what I can say is it’s been tough. Everything has been a blur since the 10th, and my only hope is that things are back to normal soon. Things are out of my hands, and I sincerely thank Sudeurion and a few other people for their concern. All I ask is that you all have my back, if things are normal soon than I’ll have all of yours too, and I’ll make a video explaining things further.
It's time for a revolution.
We will take this platform. This is our time. This is our place.
The war begins now.
Hey, guys, I was wondering how you felt about the coppa situation?
personally I get that they're trying to protect kids' privacy, but their actions seem a bit extreme.
Also: there's a protest thing going on I heard about where people will refuse to upload
Please do me a favor and sign up for Vlare Premium. Normally I wouldn't shill so hard for paid services, but this one in particular is so important.
I've been wanting a solid YouTube alternative to become prominent for pretty much the entirety of this decade, so much so that I flattered the idea of creating my own a few months before joining the original iteration of ZippCast. So far, Vlare is proving to be that robust alternative I dreamed of, but I cannot be certain it will survive the end of next year based on the punishing cycle of pretty much every site that has attempted to directly take on YouTube.
One major killer of YouTube alternatives is that nobody ever takes them seriously, only opting to maybe throw a few things in them and forget it even existed in a week. Remember Vidme? I was convinced it would be the one site that could actually succeed, as it brought in many big names like ReviewTechUSA, I Hate Everything, and even LGR... but they were never really active on there, so there was largely nothing to watch on there, and a ton of people who were brought in ended up never watching anything on that site. Admittedly, I was never big on Vidme, either, since it seemed more purely focused on flashy commercial creators, while VidLii was a lot more fun to be on.
Vlare's spike in growth following YouTube's latest trendy controversies is a critical opportunity for a superb YouTube alternative to be firmly implanted in popular online grounds for those who are fed up with everything YouTube has done since Google's acquisition of that site. Reuploading your own videos to Vlare is good, as it will give everyone over here more things to watch. What scares me about Vlare's growth, though, is that it could turn into a dead fad after January, where people develop an attitude like "oh okay I didn't get fined guess I don't need Vlare lol". I mean, even with the clarifications the FTC provided recently along with some revelations regarding YouTube's handling of the new COPPA rules, I still hold a strong skepticism over whether I or other creators will be safe, as creators are still going to be held liable by them if they do something incorrect.
The migration to Vlare shouldn't be specifically about COPPA (or worse, treating Vlare solely as something lesser like a backup utility), it should be about everything Google did to us and an undying ambition to get this site running on titanium legs. YouTube's tyranny has been going on for too long, and in order to at least fracture it, we all need to make a collective effort to help this site thrive.
Yes, bring more of your videos and your audience here, but don't stop there. Give this site your $6 and ask others to do the same so it can survive on the limited resources it has, as ads are not a reliable source of income. At least try to become involved in this website; I know it might be difficult if you're interested in some field that has a shortage (particularly retro computers for me), but even 20-30 minutes of watching Vlare uploads and writing at least one comment every day or whatever your time affords will help immensely in making Vlare become a place where people can actually seek engagement following the deafening silence they've had to endure with their videos on YouTube.
Do not butcher this opportunity, or Vlare will become another iteration of the same cycle, further impeding the credibility of YouTube alternatives and forcing creators to tolerate more and worse garbage YouTube imposes on them. I'm counting on you.